C'est la vie que j'inhabite.

Life to me, is just a selected period of time, in which the living thing chooses to do what it wants. I don't think there is a greater purpose to be fulfilled, I just think that you're born, you live, and you die.

When people ask, "What is the meaning of life?" or "Why are we here?", I think to myself, we're here because we were born, because our parents reproduced, and their parents reproduced, and so on. As to the creation of our universe, I'm not very sure. I think that we weren't just created from nothing, or "dust", I think that we evolved, as did every other living thing. I would personally believe that there was something that created the universe, whether it be a greater being or a Big Bang.

I would also take the view that there is something out there, something greater than us, and something that influences day to day life. I guess that some people would call  it "luck" and "science", but I would say that it's something single, and existent. I don't know if there is an omnipotent, omniscient, omni-everything being out there, but I found from experience that things generally tend to get better, after time, if you will it so, and in my case pray.

When I say "Life is about doing what you want", people misinterpret me and say that it's a selfish view on life and that I'm disregarding the outside world, but I would say that if you want to help people, then help them, if you want to shoot people in the face, do that. That's your life, and the world won't stop because you choose to do either of those things.

Personally, I feel that my life isn't worthwhile unless I do help people. Everyone needs a legacy to live on after they die, and I would think that my life isn't amounting to much if all I'm doing is waking up, eating, breathing, and sleeping. It may sound like a complete contradiction, but I don't consider a selfish life to be a life I'd consider living in. I would find it far too lonely and materialistic.

In regards to philosophers, I wouldn't pay much attention to them. I find that I can explain my views on anything I need to, and if I can't, I'll form an opinion based on my experiences. I have always had a problem with people telling me what to do, it's why I always skipped swimming lessons as a child.

I wouldn't claim to know even half of the world's mysteries and problems, but I don't see much point in wasting time on theories of experiences and parts of life that I have, and possibly will, never experience.

Although, I'm sure I'd contradict myself if given enough pages to write.

Cet amour, ce peut pas etre si belle et pas illegal.

An apology, for my last blog post, I stand by what I said, but it was a particularly depressing day.

I'm going to a Cinnire course tomorrow, for the weekend. It should be fun. I'm always nervous when I travel places, I'm not sure why. I'm missing Valentine's Day, which I'm quite sad about..

I know St. Valentine's Day is just a commercial whore of a day, but it's not to me, it's a day to recognise love, which, in my opinion, is the greatest creation of man. I'm going to be doing loads of fun stuff, like a disco, and ceili, and idk what else. It should be fun. Hopefully I can listen to my iPod, I don't see why not.

I such at posting blogs, I realise. I never know what to blog about. I end up vomiting my feels up on here, which is a sure fire way to repel people. Oh well.

I hope you all have an incredible Valentine's Day.

You're all beautiful. I just think you should know that, no matter who or what you are, you are beautiful, and you can be loved.

An interview with a human

If you died tomorrow, what would you have brought to the world? How have you made a difference?

I, for one, while I don't particularly want to talk about how I feel I have made a difference, I guess I must, because no-one but me will write here. I feel I have made a difference, not a big one, for example, I didn't save the lives of 40 children in a fire. I have, however, saved lives.

I say this with all intention of not coming across as arrogant and egotistic, I just feel that if I was to die tomorrow, I can be happy that I have made a difference. In the grand scheme of things, I haven't blown the mast, I haven't overloaded the water pumps, heck, I haven't even scratched the hull.. But, I have granted the happiness of alot of people, and the future happiness of much much more.

I don't know why I'm typing this, I'm not going to post the fact that I have a new blog post on Twitter or Facebook, I don't think anyone would really like to see me talk about me and "the good I have done". I just want to ask you, the nonexistent reader, how have you made a difference? And to also stress the importance of happiness.

To make someone upset, to the extent of crying, or long lasting effects, is not to just affect one person. It is to affect the parents, the siblings, the friends, the (boy/girl)friend, the schoolwork, you affect everything about that person. You destroy that person's opportunities, their dreams, ambitions, you do so much more than make them cry.

Albeit, insulting doesn't lead to this, but the amount of people that are bullied, and hurt..It's this kind of thing that makes me wonder about humans, whether or not they are innately good or evil. I would argue that children are a blank canvas, and become who their parents and surroundings make them become, but one has to wonder, are humans so stupid that they can't refrain from insulting, or hurting others?

In final, I'd like to say that I'm not distancing myself, I have hurt much more people profoundly than the majority of humans have, I'm talking about humanity as a whole, and how it can't help but will ill on itself.

Huzzahh!!

This is my usual intro. Enjoy it. It's over now.


This will not be the frivolous, carefree blog you would expect had I continued blogging, this is serious.


I will rise once more, like Voldemort, from the ashes.

Lord Voldemort never rose from the ashes, and as far as The Ministry is concerned, never existed. All rights and money made from this blog goes directly to J.K. Rowling.


Anyways.. I know none of you read this, but I'm stuck for ideas soo... If you could just leave a comment.. Kthnx.


By the way, see the new Armani Modem? Fuckyeah.

Kate's songs <33

So basically, I'm singing Kate a list of songs. I'm making her the list because she can't think of any songs xD This is the only place I can write it.. =]

Kelsey - Metro Station
Happy - Nevershoutnever
Jane Doe - Nevershoutnever
Thunder - Boyslikegirls
HeroHeroine - Boysliekgirls
Pokemon Theme
Hey - Backseat Goodbye
Such Great Heights - The Postal Service/Iron and Wine (Not sure which one yet..)
Vanilla Twilight - Owl City
The Addams Family Theme (Private Joke)
The Mast - Feist
Johanna - Sweeney Todd
Anyone Else But You - Juno OST
Big City Dreams - Nevershoutnever
The Train Song - Ben Gibbard & Feist
The Saltwater Room - Owl City
The Duet - Nevershoutnever
Fifteen - Nevershoutnever
Shake it (In Nerd Voice) - Metro Station

I apologise for this, just.. I needed to write it somewhere :P

Ode to an 11 year old poet.

Death Bed

As I lie on my death bed,

Pondering in my head,

Wondering what went wrong,

The plan three years long,

How did they do it,

Somehow they knew it,

The plan was brilliant,

But the soldiers resilient,

Those jewels sparkling,

My heart darkening,

I would have been rich,

If not for that snitch,

I heard his son shout,

Treason! Treason!,

And my heart filled with doubt,

They caught me, they caught me,

I heard my men flee,

I was cuffed and shackled,

The soldiers they cackled,

So I lie on my death bed,

Pondering in my head

1 Man. 30 Secrets. 30 Days. And a Vergina.

Hey guys. For the 4 of you that care, I have started a "30 secrets for 30 days" Dailybooth project. The idea came from the lovely and talented Veronica.

So far the secrets are:

Secret #1: Sometimes I don't feel emotion. I just tell myself to express the emotion i know i should feel so i don't seem weird..

Secret #2: I cannot hate. No matter what. And I never let go of feelings. D:

Secret #3: I am under the impression that I will push everyone in my life away before I die. I usually give myself a 1 year time limit for when i do something that fucks everything up. I believe I will die alone.

Secret #4: Chances are, if you're a girl, and I know you, I'd probably do you. Cus honestly, I can't keep it in my pants..

And no. It's not a good thing. At all.

Secret #5: I'm afraid of sleeping. Not the sleeping aspect of it. Just the fact that when I sleep it is an ending, it ends my day, and I have to start another day.

I don't like endings.

Secret #6: If you didn't know, I am currently going out with this angel. She lives in Canada. She is perfect. I want to spend the rest of my life together, life without her isn't an option anymore.

I apologise to the people who already know that, and are angry that I gave such a terrible secret.

When I was 14, I became an emotional wreck if I didn't spend an hour at least with both my parents. That was my relaxed state though, I used to stay up at night and cry myself to sleep, because I thought I didn't spend enough time with them. I don't know what set that off.

There. 2 for the price of one. =]

Secret #7: Before I met @KatiiChaos, I wasn't really very big on whether or not I existed. I didn't really care, and it seemed to me neither did others. =/

Secret #8: I think I might be bisexual. Just saying. Sorta attracted to selected guys. Like Sylar. He's hawt.

Secret #9: I'm fairly sure my mother knows about me and kate's "secret" relationship.. Which I'm not surprised about.. I'm very vocal about her..

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Also, sometimes I wish I could just leave. Which sounds really emo but idc. I would prefer be somewhere else..